Post Surgery Appt #1 (breast surgeon)

When leaving for dr's appt, I had no idea what my day would hold.

I sensed something when I entered the office & the staff, normally chipper, looked at me almost sympathetically.
Hmmm...

Then, before removing 2 of 4 of my drains, Dr Snell comes in w/ the path report.  She tells me, "I have good news & bad news... the bad news is the pathology report showed a cancerous tumor in your left breast.  The good news is that you had a mastectomy."
I don't think I even heard much after cancerous tumor....
I'm certain my jaw dropped open & I don't forget hearing my mom gasp.
I didn't cry.  Just felt such thankfulness.  My elective surgery saved me.  Without finding it, it would've continued to grow.   Because in March, the MRI didn't find it....just a few mos before that.  And nine mos before, the mammogram didn't find it.

My mind didn't think about much more than that, between the phone calls & reading.  Telling Jeff, I thought he'd fall apart.... instead, he comforted me, while *I* fell apart.

My new normal isn't anything but normal.